finally

it's nice to finally feel comfortable at school. meeting people, going to class, eating in the dining hall, walking around campus doesn't feel so foreign anymore. and that's really nice. i've met some really cool people and i hope to have some solid friendships. i know it takes time and i'm trying to remember that. it seems like i always stress and stress about these things but i always know it'll turn out okay and that i shouldn't worry. i've really had fun with amber and her friends. i thought it might be a bit weird ya know, hanging out with the big sis and all her friends and feeling like a 12-year-old again. but it's really not like that. and it's super fun. oh, and great news! going to texas in october! i can't wait. amber, j.j., sarah, and i will be roadtripping there for a few days to see ryan and all the friends i have living in texas. i'm so pumped. anyway, as usual i've procrastinated and need to catch up on some reading.

i'm sitting in my new room, in a new city, with my new lime green comforter, in a new bed, next to my new neighbors, and i'm writing in my new blog. so many new things is quite overwhelming. i wasn't ready for all this change when i stepped in the car for the ride down here. i knew it was time and i was happy to not be one of the last of my friends to leave. but it's hard. it's really hard. my first day here was really exciting and i was anxious to have a "place" of my own. it still feels weird calling it home. it's not home yet. i feel like i'm at camp. that in a day mom and dad will come pick me up and hug everything out of me. they'll join me for a final camper/parent lunch and we'll pack my stuff in the car and i'll go back home. i'm starting to realize that this is not the case. it's not that i'm not having fun because i am. i just miss my family and my friends. sometimes i just long for one of those hugs or a morning in the Anderson home. it's nice having amber here. i know i'll meet more people and feel more comfortable soon enough but i'm getting impatient. i love my classes. everything will be good and i know that i just hope to meet some sweet and cahrazy people. i'm auditioning on thursday for the musical/play on campus. last minute decision and i'm proud of myself for actually doing it. but hey, college isn't a time to be bashful. i want to be involved and i want to have fun. it'll be quite the ride and i'm looking forward to it.